please help me escape an abusive mother

gothbfships

i feel so absolutely terrible asking for donations, but my situation is getting worse by the day and there’s only so much i can do

i’m a 24 year old latino trans man in new york. i suffer from clinical depression, an anxiety disorder, and bpd - as well as several physical health problems such as a compromised immune system (celiac disease) and chronic migraines.

despite my compromised immune system i work part time (i’m an essential worker) but i make very little due to few hours.
i’ve lived with my mother for my whole life and she has always been incredibly emotionally and verbally abusive. since the start of the covid-19 pandemic, her treatment of me has become something i am unable to tolerate without shutting down. i’m at the point where it’s hard to function. each day is a battle with her that leaves me wondering if suicide is the only way out. she’s begun wildly gaslighting me and triggering shutdowns and dissociation. i’m so tired from both work and doing everything for her + my emotional exhaustion that i can sleep all day (and i do).

i have actually started a profile for affordable living for my boyfriend and i today, but nyc affordable living is a lottery you must apply for. my boyfriend is also a trans man and lives out of state, but was put out of work by the pandemic. his home life is also not ideal. at this moment in time, neither of us have the savings or income to even apply for housing. all that i know is, my mother is telling me i need to leave asap.

please, if you can, donate to help me, my boyfriend @dadbodsarehot, and my pet rescue duck into a better and safer situation. i didn’t know where else to turn.

you can send any donations here (my paypal.me is under my witchcraft business’ name).

you can also contact me directly for $5 tarot readings or $10 astral readings. if you are interested in spirit/entity companionship, you can also join my shop discord and browse the spirits i have available for binding. it currently gets next to no business.

please reblog this if you can’t donate. thank you so much, everyone.

here’s a picture of my duck, paz, to make you smile (you may have seen her around social media)

gothbfships

UPDATE: my mother’s behavior is getting worse. she’s taken to driving recklessly and almost getting us into accidents at least 3 times in the last week. she is also breaking glass, ranging from food we just bought, to cups and mugs, and even my duck’s drinking bowl. today i’m almost an hour late to work because she wouldn’t let me leave the house until i finished everything around the house she wanted me to do. i’m ashamed and afraid i might lose my job, and that’s the only income i have. further, my boyfriend’s roommate is threatening to kick him out by september, in which case he won’t have anywhere to go.

PLEASE, please please help if you can. i’m at the point where i don’t know what to do anymore.

gothbfships

UPDATE 2: it’s confirmed that my boyfriend’s roommate (house owner) is kicking him out in september. if this happens, he’ll have nowhere to go. our only shot is to get a place secured soon or we won’t have anything left

i’m searching daily for the cheapest apartment space for us to get. with our low price range + a deposit, we’d need just a few months of rent money to keep us afloat until he can find a job here and i can transition to full time work at my job (or find something more fruitful)

we’re looking to raise about $3-4000 if at all possible. please, if you can spare even $1, together that would help immensely. thank you so much for your time, again. and thank you to all of the amazing people who have donated already. you’re incredible.

gothbfships

update 3: just a small one because i’m so tired of just everything. the house my one bedroom apartment (which i share with 2 family members) is located in now has bed bugs. mattresses and blankets are getting thrown out. who knows if we can afford an exterminator. i’ve lived here without a space of my own since i was 13 and i don’t care anymore about saving it, i need to get out.

my boyfriend sleeps on a recliner and it’s now broken. he has painful problems with his back and trying to use his roommate’s old bed is causing him immense pain affecting his sleep. long story short: we need to get a place asap. i’m always at work and half my minimal paycheck gets taken by by mother. please please please help. if we had a dollar for every note we’d be set. reblogs help so much if you can’t donate. thank you

cowboyslovingboys

why do grooms get one boring black jacket and brides get the most jawdropping gowns ever like when i get married i want pearls and lace and a train is that too much to ask??

rebellum

Hnn could you imagine.. a suit embroidered with baroque pearls… a LACE CAPE gently floating behind the groom… a fuckin sword..

cowboyslovingboys

oh my god…. your m i n d…. the wedding industry is quaking

keltik

Meanwhile in Scotland…

moonymango

YO, there are SO MANY great groom outfits around the world where he is dressed all in silk, lace, gold, pearls and glitter, with capes and scarves, hats and stitchery and I find it so sad that most of these countries switch over to “suit”. Like, look at these handsome boys!

India